I hate living paycheck to paycheck. I don’t have any money until the 15th. There’s technically money in my bank account, but it’s all waiting on checks to be cashed and automatic bills to go through. I don’t even have any money for groceries. I bought a lot of canned soup and ramen and I’m already sick of it. So I opted for not eating tonight. Not a good choice, but I just feel so worn down lately. Sometimes I feel like I’m not cut out for being an adult. Being a kid was hard, emotionally, but at least I didn’t have to do bills or figure out finances or try to eat when I only have $15 until payday.
I guess this is why people say stupid shit like “being a kid is the best thing ever”. They miss the times when they didn’t feel like everyday life was nibbling away at their reserves of energy, money, and sanity. I don’t miss being a kid overall, but I do miss not having to worry about where my rent check is coming from.
I’m just feeling down because I’m hungry. Don’t mind me.
This is why I tell everyone I love my 30’s way more than my 20’s, and I didn’t mind turning 30. It does get better – struggling as a young adult isn’t fun at all 😦